Fearless Warrior In A Picket Fence

Wow I need to update more.

So, I’m 20 now. Woot? It doesn’t feel any different. It’s good I guess because I am no longer plagued by the stereotypes of teenagedom. It’s bad because I am now an adult and well yeah…. I don’t think I want to be an adult. I still shy away from doing any chores unless I am threatened.

I am desperate for a car and yet am still guided by logic so I have … gah! I can’t think of the word. I have resigned myself to waiting until around May. I WANT THE CAR BY THIS SUMMER. Mom wanted me to wait for 6 months but bleh if I see a car in two months that I want I am going for it. I will have a decent down payment and I can make payments. People are always going on about how bad payments are but how else am I going to build my credit?

Ummm…..

All I do is work and school. I have lunch with Steph now and then… but half the time that’s because I am bumming a ride. I talk to Jess now and then but she does most of the talking and when I have something to say I usually feel embarrassed about it. I need more friends. I get along ok with people at work but nothing that has started anything outside the work place. I get along well with Lillie but she is 17 and acts it. I have hopes for Sara, the new girl. She is more like me than the others. Quiet and nice and she is 25-ish.

So, yeah… idk. That’s me for now. Hopefully something more exciting will happen but regardless I will try to update more from now on.

In honor of being so bad at keeping up with my LJ I have completed a meme to further delay a meaningful entry. This was stolen from Hank, who stole it from John, who stole it from facebook. I think technically you are supposed to use your first and last name (which is all well and good for a fairly unambiguous name like Green) but it seems like the only other people with my names are a couple realtors so I went with just Mary.


Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search.
A: "Mary needs to determine the best day to work her magic.” Or “Sexy Mary Needs Attention on her Feet” ((both work for me XD))


Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search.
A: “Mary looks like a crack ho”

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
A: “Mary Says Jesus, It's Cold!”

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search.
A: “Mary wants you to take action on ‘No Execution for Acute Mental Patient Andre Thomas’!.” ((well, I am against capitol punishment…)) “Mary wants me to go to the drug store but I can't because I have to work.” ((si, senor. Bring me those drogas!))


Q:Type in "[your name] does" in Google search.
A: “Mary does this make it an Incubus ?” ((half a sentence, but the best that could be found on the first page))


Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search.
A: www.mary hates.com ((O.O there is a whole website for this)) “mary hates myspace and loves facebook” ((meh… Give me Ning or give me___))

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search.
A: “Mary Asks: Lemons instead of Limes?” ((hey, limeade tastes pretty darned good but life better hand me some sugar and water too)) “Mary asks about the future.” ((yup))


Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search.
A: “Mary likes all Cats” ((yeah… not really))

Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search.
A: “mary eats blog posts about Seattle area restaurants” ((DUDE blog posts are yummy)) “maryeats.com” ((apparently I am good for websites))


Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search.
A: “Mary wears her Ohio shirt with pride, but now she's in New Hampshire.” Or “ MARY WEARS MORE STYLISH GARB” ((if only))


Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search.
A: ((couldn’t find anything for this one… every entry was on Mary Delgado getting arrested but I could be bothered to read further into it)

Q: Type in "[your name] loves" in Google Search.
A. “Mary loves her man” ((hmm…)) “Mary loves Dick!”((umm…))

Well that was interesting. It must rock to be John Green and find things that are actually about him and not Mary Kate Olson >.< I mean seriously

OR am I just afraid of the unknown? Of what is different, what is beyond my comfort zone?

I've always supported the "Didn't vote? Don't complain" thing but what if I fully intended to vote but got there too late? Can I complain?

*sigh*
good bye car
good bye independance
good bye having the house to myself





hello mom :D

I just drove by myself for the first time!!

SO yeah, I REALLY want to go to New York for the Paper Towns official release party. John, Hank, the Katherine, the Yeti, JULIA NUNES and a whole mess of other people will be there. (Kyle and Chelsey among them.)

It's not fair! I mean yeah… I am going to the Orlando one, which I have recently realized will be extra amazing b/c it will be one week after the release and that will be the day we know if John is a NY Times best seller. *does the I-<3-secret-NF-projects dance* (later i realized that the Bestseller list is released on sundays >.<)

I may also go to Miami with Steph but only b/c I want to go to that NF gathering…. She wants to go to visit with this girl she met online but w/e…. I'll chill in the hotel and hang with the NF's. It would be so jokes to see John in Miami and be like 'Ok, I'll see you tomorrow in Orlando'. This is still highly improbable but w/e. A girl can dream, right?

Yah, so I'll be getting my license in a week or so… and my grant money will be available to me in a week or so… and my second, and far better paycheck will be in two weeks or so….. THIS WEEK NEEDS TO GO BY FASTER!!

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I havent updated in forever, i know. blah blah blah. I think about it. I really do. I'll update when i think of something interesting to write or when i get up the energy to write the not so interesting stuff

I am strangely happy this morning (considering all the crap in my life that would inspire a ‘blah’ feeling). Rocking out to Julia Nunes, searching for flair, and thinking of chemistry (yes that was supposed to be vague)

If Miss Nunes makes me this happy continually I may have to buy her CD. She is available on iTunes but it would be so much cooler to have the CD, even though that means I have to send $10 through the mail. The only problem is that I want to be careful with my money. I had an awesome babysitting gig this weekend. Nearly $100 for a grand total of 14 hours. Though I need to give my mom gas money. It was wicked far. I’m going again on Thursday so maybe I’ll take that $50 and spend it on myself.

Who knew a 9 month old could be so tiring? Well, ok I did at one point. But at that time I was used to such young babies and Joshua has been described as a ‘demon child’ so I’d assumed it was just him.

Oh another reason I am happy is because I went onto mugglenet and realized that it has been five years since Order of the Phoenix came out. That is one of the craziest things I have heard all week. Five years? Five? Really? Man… that’s crazy. The lovely people at mugglenet brought it all back for me. The excitement of the night after having counted down for hundreds of days. The pride when it became the fastest selling book EVER. Did I mention the excitement?


It was my first midnight release. And it was so cheesy. I remember laughing as Professor Trelawney was played by a vastly over weight woman and under the fake beard, Dumbledore was really only like 23. Herbology consisted of putting a lima bean inside a zip-lock baggy with a wet paper towel.

I’d always loved books but Harry Potter added that obsessive/squeal-like-a-school-girl/write-your-own-horrid-fanfiction feeling. It will always hold a special place in my heart because of that. No matter what other good books may come along it won’t be the same.

*raises imaginary glass* so here’s to Harry Potter, the boy who lived…. And died…. And lived again. *cracks up* I love that line.

There are these times where I feel really poetic and my very thoughts seem to follow like a perfectly timed poem. Occasionally I write stuff down during these times and i totally just found one in a note book beneath an RP post and an LJ update that never actually made it to LJ. Here it is:


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I think too much. My mind runs in circles, like this song; caught on an unending loop, The end catches and jumps to the begingin. It is stuck in my head and I soon grow tired of it.
The scratch of my pencil distracts me. It is a beautiful noics as I destroy the beauty I see in a fresh piece of paper.
Is it odd that I feel compelled to fix my own spelling mistakes when no one else will read this? Is it odd that I am asking a question of a piece of paper.
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see what i mean? crazy stuff

HAHA i was in the kitchen cooking with Kim and I'd had the Nerdfigher-Like song stuck in my head for a few hours. Kim told me to "stop singing that Lazy Town song" Lazy town is a kiddy show thats obnoxiously peppy b/c the hero, sportacus (disgustingly atletic guy in tights), has to fight laziness. I'm like no, thats not what i was singing. She insisted that it was. when i denied again shes like "well sing it to me. What are the words?"

There was no way i was going to sing:




so i had to pull the moody teenager I-dont-want-to-talk thing because she refused to drop it.

That would have been crazy embarrassing. She had already been saying things like "Its weird that you can be so close to some one you've never met" but you know what? its better this way. you meet people you already have similar interests with and then you get to know each other before you see them and without many of the oddities of social interaction. though in defence of reality, there are a whole new set of oddities that belong to internet interactions. One is not judged by your looks but by your screen name, and not by how you talk but on your grammar (or lack there of). its interesting that you leave behind a set of nuances, only to find new and nearly as intricate ones in a chatroom.

My Book Came! *does a seated happydance* I must emphasize how encredibly jokes Chelsey is. Its so pretty O.O and nice and thick. There's nothing more i dislike than a short book. I finished Messenger and I am thoroughly dissapointed/irratated with it. It was short and the ending sucked. It felt like she just got tired of writting and found the fastest way possible to end it.

I called Jesse and she said she's up for a road trip. I'm thinking Saturday we will chill around St. George Street and (if its ok with my cousin) we will crash here. Then sunday we will drive down to Daytona Beach to chill with the Nerdfighters. I may invite Rayne, who says Disney is also too rich for his blood too, to join us to walk around St. George street. who knows? that may be really weird but i'd hate for him to come all the way from Georgia just for one day.

i've decided that if i don't spend a single cent from here to august i should be able to afford it. I'm still holding out for a job.

Ok i'm off to read. I'm trying very hard to not get too attached to these plans. there are so many ways it could fail.

Well, we finally got our act together and FANG is actually going to happen. For those of you not familiar with the popular BANG and BANG beta, FANG is the Florida version of the Boston Awesome Nerdfighter Gathering. (FANG=Florida Awesome Nerdfighter Gathering, if you are feeling especially slow today)

Nerdfighteria is a utopian society (usually) but unfortunately it is a vast, vast land and many of its citizens must go to great lengths to meet IRL. Theres at least two people going, maybe three. I want my friend Rayne to go but he's in Georgia. Its in orlando and they are planning a day at Disney and the following day we'll go to daytona beach and do a beach clean up (nerdfighters reduce WorldSuck, its just how we roll. Katie mentioned that we might have a barbique after.

It makes me incredibly sad because its way more likely that i wouldn't be able to go. Its 50% because of lack of money and 50% lack of transportation. Arg... this sucks. I can try and convince Jessie and Chelsea to come with me but their parents aren't as cool as my mom so they would have to be all secretive about it. So thats my transport.

if i do this right all i'll have to worry about is gas and maybe a cheap-o hotel and a smidge of food.

I WANT TO GO. Its the week before school starts... *hopes, wishes, and prays*

I picked up Messenger by Lois Lowry at the Library. I was also excited to see that Uglies was checked in... until it couldn't be found. The librarians even went searching for it... after I questioned them over the Wizardology thing. At first they thought I was asking because i wanted to check it out... they told me there was another copy in the fiction section. O.o I explained that I was merely confused as to why it was in the reference section when it was listed as fiction everywhere else, including their own shelves. They told me that usually the people they buy the books from tell them what section it should go in. She looked it up in the computer and every library around had it listed as reference.

they told me that if anyone were to disagree they could dispute it at one of the monthly meetings. It would have to be a unanimous decision to change it in ALL the concerned libraries. Of course that wouldn't happen even if i were here for the meeting. Epic fail (as chelsey would say)

I've organized my reading list... there's a lot by scott westerfeild on it XD. I havent read even one of his books and i already like him.

Oh guess what... my one of my best NF friends has bought New Moon for me on Amazon and it should be here in like two days! Tell me how awesome is that. I'm already planning her thank-you gift. but shhhh don't tell her, she doesn't know yet ^_^

( Teh reading list, all expanded and such )

so re-reading twilight was quite an affair today. Having finished the book at 5am (before going to bed) with my cousin knowing I had to read at 2/3 through while she was looking and from the begining while i was alone. I went form their first biology class together to that lovely Saturday they spent together in the meadow.

want to hear something freaky. I found out i'm an aunt today. By blood. I dont know why that exited me so much. I dont even know the girl's name. but i do know that she is 12 and is my niece.

for as close as i've become with my second cousins and as much as i tell my self i'm liek their aunt its not the same. Its funny what a single child with treasure.

i've figured out what my beef with twilight is. bella, the main character drives my subconscience crazy. but i still loved the book and as for edward... agree with John Green who said (in essence) that edward is like an idea, a concept rather than a real person. so half of us is like "this is so unrealistic and ridiculous" and the other is like "how amazing is he, dream come true, perfect romance, etc"

So i stayed up till 5 am reading... after i'd told my cousin at 12 that i wasn't going to read anymore. I coudlnt help it. there was finally more meaning to bella's crush than his good looks. I couldnt go to bed half way finished. plus i was waiting for the slow computer to do something so i read while i waited.

i'll update more later. I dont regret buying it though i still wish it hadn't been $8

so i broke down and bought twilight. We went to Target and while i was strolling around to entertain the kiddies in the cart, pointedly avoiding the toys section, i stopped in the books section. Twilight was there while the girls sqealed over dora books I read 20 pages. I then walked around the store cradling it for 10 mins trying to decide whether or not to buy it. i couldn't help it. I've had this craving for two weeks now. the kind of craving only a new book (as in a book i havent yet read) can satisfy.

My enormous guilt of spending $8 on a book is causing me to be overly critical of it (i'm trying to decide whether or not it was worth the moeny) but i was having so much fun reading it it was giving me hot flashes from the excitement. There is something glitchy with the thermostat here so its usually cold at night but i was hot. And its not becasue of this Edward cullens fellow. for all that hes cracked up to be in the internet fandom I was somewhat disappointed. infact i found it tiresome after a while to hear how beautiful he was.

I've read 200 pages in 3 hours. I'll probably be done some time tommorow.

Note to chelsey: your jacob balck icons with the wolf print have turned out to be a bit of a spoiler. unless i'm reading too much into it.

I'm going on my third week up here and do you know what that means? 1. the kids are starting to love me. they pray for me at bedtime and do drawings of us playing together. the three year old is saying things like "Mary Beth is the best babysitter"

2. the females (the ones old enough to) are hormoning. and it totally makes a difference. and its over the really small stuff to. We have this shake that we have for breakfast. it has all sorts of veggie and fruit servings. as i am making mine out of no where Kim comes over and pours soy milk into it. i object and she asks why. I dont htink i should need a reason as to why i like the things i do but give an answer anyways "i dont like soy milk". i proceed to add peanut butter and then kim takes the cup away. "dont let your pride get in the way of everything Mary. just dump it out." she snips at me. I had just woken up so I had yet to do something to deserve this treatment. i wasn't being prideful, either. i just didnt want to waste the soy stuff. just yesterday she'd been talking about how expensive it was. Kim has a very strong personality... and it doesnt mesh well with mine when hers flares out like that.

It is obnoxiously hot out. there is an enormous amount of cicadas here so it tricks your brain into thinking its hotter than it is. they make the sound that they use in desert movies to show the audience its so hot.

We went to the zoo yesterday (in this heat). It was miserable in the heat but we got freakishly close to some animals. we were seriously like 4 feet away from a pacing leopard. the more we were there though the worse i felt for them. they all seemed so sad (it was probably just the heat that was making them sluggish) except the elephants who were being wicked cute as they flung mud on them selves and each other. oh and the sting rays, which we got to touch... alot. they kept the babies in laundry baskets that were rigged with floaties. SO cute.

the ones that really struck me were the cheetahs and the red wolves. the cheetah enclosure boasted a sign that cheetahs could reach speeds of 60 miles per hour but the enclosure couldnt have been more than 200 feet long. more like 125-150.

the red wolves we saw while ridding the train that took you "behind the scenes". the tour lady was like "the red wolves are very shy and spook easily but if you look hard enough you might be able to see them hiding in the bushes" and then honked the horn. Is it just me or does that seem wrong? It all seemed to unnatural. but part of me knew that a lot of these animals faced extinction (through human hands) outside their cages. "there are only 800 of these cranes left in the world, including the ones in captivity" the tour lady said. It made me sad.

I'm going to miss Jessie's birthday get-together. but i may be able to hang out with feda... if she ever calls me back.


ooo and i got some new NF icons. they are totally awesome. I really need to go back and watch all the B2.0 vids.

what a random concoction of thoughts XD

ok my reading list stands thus:

Twilight (and the accompanying books if i like it)
The Perks of being a Wallflower
Midnighters trilogy by Scott Westerfeild
Stranger in a strange land by robert Heinlein
Keys to the Kingdom by Garthh Nix
Shade's Children by Garth Nix
Uglies, Pretties, Specials, and Extras all by Scott Westerfeild
the Pendragon series by DJ Machale

I'd also like to read the original Peter Pan book if it exists.

so i went to the library with the kiddies the other day in the hopes of picking up either Messengers by Lois Lowry or Twilight but messenger wasn't there and there was a 12 person long waiting list for twilight. Its a very small library.

But some thing there really irritated me. Books in the reference section are widely regaurded as being facutal books. they are usually encylcopedias, dicctionaries, and the like. much to my puzzlement i find this




in the children's reference section. At first i thought it was a mistake but upon closer inspection of the spine i found that it carried the same yellow "ref" sticker as the "atlas of the world" next to it.

I know that i'm considered conservative. I'm against things like abortion and stem cell research but it is not for this reason that i feel this placement is wrong. I don't think that kids, who are raised well even in the smallest measure, will be corrupted by these books. I myself find them particularly entertaining but to place them in the reference section is like putting harry potter in the nonfiction/history section. It is wrong and may give kids the wrong idea, especially since these books are incredibly detailed. they tell how to cast spells, make potions, and even make your own wand.

My inner Harry Potter obsessor would like to point out that the book that teaches that love conquers all and that evil never wins for long is the one that is accused of corrupting youth while the one that gives specific details on how to perform said corrupting magic is put in the reference section.

I realize that the book is formated to look like a handbook/encyclopedia but that shouldn't matter. It should go in the fiction section. Am I wrong for feeling so strongly about this?